Thank you, Michael Joseph Jackson! :)

As I sit here and write (or try to) the tears haven't dried yet... it's excruciating trying to find the words to express the nth part of what I'm feeling... but it will help... and after this, I will be able to look up at the sky and smile :)
I must confess that when I heard that Michael Jackson had died, and of a heart attack on top of that, I had absolutely no reaction. Not because I'm an insensitive bitch (which I honestly hope I'm not) but because it didn't seem real... like... Michael Jackson? The Michael Jackson? Who was preparing to go on tour and make a comeback and prove that "the king's not dead"?
And of course... as hours and days passed, I slowly realized it was true...

I'm glad they put on such an amazing memorial... it gives us, the fans, the rest of the world, a chance to commemorate his disappearance and celebrate his life along with his family and friends... though I was thousand of miles away from Staples, I felt like I was in the audience, crying at the heartbreaking yet heartwarming speeches of his friends and family, the people who knew him best, applauding and singing and praying at the end of the service... I was most impressed by the speech of a man, unfortunately I don't remember his name, but I remember his message and I hope it will remain engraved in my heart and mind. Though I cried at every speech and every song, the most heartbreaking moment was at the end, when, after Michael's brother Marlon said a few words, his daughter Paris took the stand, shivering and barely holding it in, and said she only wanted to say that from the moment she was born, Michael had been the best father you can ever imagine, at which point she burst out crying...

Some people keep saying that he didn't have a lot of happy moments throughout his life, given the fact that he started his career at age 5, constantly being in the public eye, constantly trying to rise up to the public's expectations, but after seeing what I saw today, and hearing what I heard today, I think, and by no means do I mean to speak on behalf of him, I'm sure that if he had the chance and choice, he'd do it all over again! He may have taken some bad decisions, but he always kept going on, always with a smile! People judged him, offended him and called him names, and it hurt him, but he did not back down; even if their comments were hurtful, he did not take offense, he kept on showing them his love and magic.

In the end, his love for life and for people prevailed over the scandals and gossips, otherwise, there wouldn't have been so many people gathered, in LA and worldwide, to be there for his "final concert".

Funny how you can never appreciate what you have until it's gone...

He managed to convey his love, his hopes, his dreams, his strength, his strive, his passion, his unshaken belief that the world can change, through his music, performances and actions. He made broken hearts smile, he broke boundaries, he saw the unseen, he made the impossible possible, and for that, he shall always remain a burning flame in the hearts of those who knew him, loved him, appreciated him, admired him, respected him, not for the celebrity, but for the human being that he was... This is merely the end of a beginning... Millions of unborn people will be influenced by his music, his dance, his life... They will continue his work, and carry on his message!

And for those of you who still consider him a monster and a freak! If only more monsters like him were born more often... maybe humanity would still have a chance...

Thank you, Michael Joseph Jackson! For loving, for hoping, for believing, for fighting, for striving, for never giving up, for everything you've accomplished, for always wanting more and doing everything to get it, for being a perfectionist and an idealist, for being YOU!