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Saengil Chukha Hamnida....

2010-01-26T17:27:00.003+02:00

オッパ~~

おたんじょうびおめでとうございます！

でも。。。 why can't I feel happy for you and celebrate....? :(

ごめんなさい。。。 I should be cheering you on and rejoice but I can't pretend... I'm making things worse, aren't I? :D

だいじょうぶ。。。I know you'll be alright... heroes never die, ね？

I'll cheer for you on Feb. 4.... ;)

がんばって。。。オッパ。。。

gaaaaaaah!!!!

2010-01-20T12:35:00.001+02:00

it's snowing again!

why the hell did it have to snow?

that's it.... >.< snow and me... we're done!!! X(

sigh

2010-01-06T16:09:00.002+02:00

I started gathering some recipes for Japanese and Korean food and as I was writing them using my ink ballpoint pen that I love so much, I started thinking about how ink is durable and wondered whether someone, decades from now, will skim through the pages yellowed by the passing of time, and say "wow! it's my grandma's recipe book!"...
*sigh*

Happy New Year!

2009-12-31T20:27:00.003+02:00

so yeah.... I hope 2010 will be better than 2009 and worse than 2011... ^^ may all your wishes come true and w/e...

peace :)>-

Aya

1000 paper cranes...

2009-12-19T10:17:00.003+02:00

well it's only about 100 so far, but I will make the 1000 paper cranes to get my wish... =___=

2009-12-19T10:06:00.001+02:00

1 a.m.

this morning

cool, huh? ^.^

Snoooow!!!

2009-12-19T00:07:00.004+02:00

taken 3 days ago, the view from my balcony (3rd floor.)

and lots of it....

and these taken an hour ago... it's blurry, because it's snowing heavily...

it's really worse than it seems... to give you the "real stuff" I'd have to go out and take snapshots as I try to make my way through the snow, but there's no way I'm taking the camera out at -10 C. (hmm... I'll try with my phone.... hopefully, my hand won't freeze...)

The city in its... winter holidays clothes ^.^

2009-12-18T23:49:00.005+02:00

just some snapshots...in case you were wondering how my town looks like... sorry for the low quality..

The City Hall - side view (cause the side view is better.. ^^)

the Prefecture...

one of the main streets... not far from the City Hall.

aaaand...

well the camera really hated me that night (probably cause we'd been apart for so long.... damn you Nii-san!! >.<) so this is the best I could do...

Christmas tree & fireworks!

2009-12-18T23:41:00.005+02:00

as promised... still Dec 10.

I managed to film it... ^^ and near the Xmas tree there was another Santa, and I managed to take a pic of my nephew with him (I wonder why he never asked how come there are so many Santas.... )

the video... ^^

My nephew's kindergarted Xmas festivity ^^

2009-12-18T23:29:00.004+02:00

it was held on December 10, in the building inside the Botanical Garden. just a few snapshots.

what they are wearing is part of our national tradition. they each got to say a short poem and they sang Christmas carols. ^.^

and then Santa came!!! ^.^

after the festivity, we (meaning me, my sis, my bro-in-law and my nephew) went downtown for the lighting (?) of the Christmas tree. ^.^ but I'll write about that in the next post ^^

IRIS review

2009-12-16T14:03:00.003+02:00

I wanted to be the first to write an IRIS review for dramacrazy.net but I got lazy so someone beat me to it. but I wrote mine anyway and it's awaiting approval ^.^

2009-09-03T00:16:00.002+03:00

okay so... I'm feeling kinda down... again...
I've been away for several days, and now I have some catching up to do so while I'm doing that, I'll just leave this video for you to watch. I think the song is so beautiful and sweet and it's making me drown in tears every time I see this vid, for a number of reasons (which I don't want to mention... not even on CR, Nida! ) and... oh well... here it is...

sleepless

2009-08-19T03:54:00.008+03:00

okay so... my sister definitely killed me today (oh well... yesterday technically...) when she told me that my brother-in-law is leaving for Spain on Monday... guess who'll need to move to my sister's to stay with the kid while she's at work... X(X(
and there are a number of reasons why I don't like staying there, but I don't really wanna get into it right now... plus, I haven't even decided that I'd actually move there for a month (though it would be good to be away from my bro, cause last week was like heaven when he was at the seaside - now he's in the mountains)

changing the subject now...

after the... shock... that I experienced while I was skimming through babyface's photos on asianfanatics and saw his new look, now I checked youtube, searching for the songs on his new album (oh yeah! happy birthday, by the way! :P) and saw the video and my first reaction was staring at the monitor and thinking "somehow... he doesn't look that bad..." (and I know I had the same reaction when another Asian guy changed his look, and I can't remember who it was and it's bugging me and I hate that... X(X(X(X(X( that's it!!! you're never seeing babyface again!!!)

and this made me visualize a pose for a drawing that will, of course, never see the light of day... X(

and this makes me think of my laziness and procrastination, the drawings that are waiting to be made and the fanfics that are waiting to be updated, but complaining about it won't solve a damn thing... X(

I watched Jeff Dunham's Spark of Insanity again ^.^ and yesterday, I re-watched Arguing With Myself...
I just love that guy... he's the funniest man alive and I wish he'd release a new DVD... *sigh*

and yes... it's 4 am and I'm updating my blog.... X(

p.s.: I just watched the video for the 2nd time... rather than Right Round, the song reminds me a tiny bit of Womanizer... it's still hot though ^.^ and the platinum blond hair (along with the black eyeliner) does give him a vampire feel... which I like! and that's coming from me, the girl who pretty much dislikes (to put it gently...) vampires and anything vampire-related at the moment!

heartbroken

2009-08-11T00:49:00.015+03:00

... I feel so useless ...

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!

2009-08-06T01:26:00.003+03:00

and no, I don't mean someone in particular...

at this very moment, I feel so mad and angry and frustrated and the thing I would love most to do right now is scream in a pillow as loud as I can, but unfortunately, it's 1:30 am so I'll have to refrain myself... >.<

I hate the itchy sensation all over my body.
I hate the stupid fly that won't leave me alone!! (there were 2 of them, but I "murderized" one of them...)

I hate this stinkin' town.
I hate this stupid country, with its stupid and selfish, self-centered, greedy, sleezy, stupid, dumb-ass, stinkin', pitiful etc. leaders!!

I hate my headphones (but they're still better than nothing).
I hate that I can't finish what I start.
I hate that I can't draw better.
I hate that I'm lazy.
I hate that I'm 21 and feel like I've wasted my life.
I hate Hongki, especially with that stupid hairstyle (like wtf?!) (kill me Jell, I don't care... just remember that your life would be even more boring without me)

I love that I just killed that stinkin' fly.

only good things among all of this shit: I can put my heart at ease knowing that DBSK have no intention of disbanding.

I'm totally fangirling over Big Bang these days, which gives me a multitude of ways to piss off Jelly, and pissing off Jelly is so damn revitalizing!

oh yes.. I like 2ne1 as well ^.^

>.<

2009-08-01T09:14:00.003+03:00

I should really think before I act/speak.

my instincts are good, but the first impulse is not... thinking before acting/speaking can save me a lot of trouble and future regrets...

then again... I always think too much...

but sleep is always a good adviser...

To be or not to be... TVXQ

2009-08-01T09:01:00.003+03:00

okay so... this is what I read last night:

http://www.allkpop.com/index.php/full_story/round_1_tvxq_vs_sm_entertainment._tvxq_is_really_breaking_up/

http://www.allkpop.com/index.php/full_story/tvxq_united_against_sm/

if this is all true (though I have no reason to believe it's not), and they lose against SM, if they're really gonna leave the group because of that, I'm sorry but they're not who I thought they were. they really are underpaid under-appreciated by SM (this reminds me of JE... >.<), but to leave the group because of that? whatever happened to "we love our fans" and "we love our job"? you can't just throw away all these years of hard work and success.

anyways... there's a lot of ifs...

and I'm pretty sure they'll win against SM, cause they're so damn right... that is... unless SM realizes what a gold mine they really are and what losing them would mean to their profits...

if, God forbid, they lose, I hope they remain a group and sign with another record company, cause I'm sure there are a lot of them out there who would give them the world for working under their label, cause they effing deserve it!!!

whatever happens, I'll still love them! ^.^ it's pretty impossible not to... I've got them under my skin! *smug* though I was pretty depressed last night, today I can walk around smiling and praying for the best! ^.^

2009-07-22T18:59:00.002+03:00

I absolutely love this song... they look awesome in white and they all have their million dollars smiles on... ^.^

I love watching it every morning after I wake up cause it gives me such a warm and happy feeling and helps me start my day with a smile... ^.^

dillemmas....

2009-07-22T18:57:00.003+03:00

which is worse... setting free a criminal or convicting and innocent man, therefore ruining his life and the life of those around him?

what is the difference between heart and soul...? (in the abstract way of course... like when you say Heart, Mind & Soul, you don't mean heart in a biological way... ^.^ so... what's the difference?)

cry

2009-07-08T20:11:00.004+03:00

it hurts.... it hurts so bad... it hurts more than it did last night... I can't even listen to one of his songs without bursting into tears... why? he wasn't even that important to me.... I think that I'm beginning to treasure him more now that he's gone... these past few days I realized that I had listened to so many songs that I didn't even knew were originally his songs... I can't listen to "You Are Not Alone"... without crying my eyes out... not to mention "Heal The World"... or "I'll Be There"...

I went to the library today... to borrow again the book that I had borrowed about 6 years ago... "Moonwalk"... unfortunately, I couldn't find "Dancing The Dream", although it did appear on the computer... stupid library... >.<

I still wanna draw a portrait of him... at least try....

Maybe the fact that I lost my mom at such an early age made me more sensitive than I already was... I've attended so many funerals and memorial services that it's really impossible for me to attend one nowadays... I couldn't even go to my primary school teacher's funeral... (yeah... she was about MJ's age when she died...)

Don't worry, Michael! I'll be ok... soon...I'll SMILE! :)

Thank you, Michael Joseph Jackson! :)

2009-07-07T23:37:00.005+03:00

As I sit here and write (or try to) the tears haven't dried yet... it's excruciating trying to find the words to express the nth part of what I'm feeling... but it will help... and after this, I will be able to look up at the sky and smile :)
I must confess that when I heard that Michael Jackson had died, and of a heart attack on top of that, I had absolutely no reaction. Not because I'm an insensitive bitch (which I honestly hope I'm not) but because it didn't seem real... like... Michael Jackson? The Michael Jackson? Who was preparing to go on tour and make a comeback and prove that "the king's not dead"?
And of course... as hours and days passed, I slowly realized it was true...

I'm glad they put on such an amazing memorial... it gives us, the fans, the rest of the world, a chance to commemorate his disappearance and celebrate his life along with his family and friends... though I was thousand of miles away from Staples, I felt like I was in the audience, crying at the heartbreaking yet heartwarming speeches of his friends and family, the people who knew him best, applauding and singing and praying at the end of the service... I was most impressed by the speech of a man, unfortunately I don't remember his name, but I remember his message and I hope it will remain engraved in my heart and mind. Though I cried at every speech and every song, the most heartbreaking moment was at the end, when, after Michael's brother Marlon said a few words, his daughter Paris took the stand, shivering and barely holding it in, and said she only wanted to say that from the moment she was born, Michael had been the best father you can ever imagine, at which point she burst out crying...

Some people keep saying that he didn't have a lot of happy moments throughout his life, given the fact that he started his career at age 5, constantly being in the public eye, constantly trying to rise up to the public's expectations, but after seeing what I saw today, and hearing what I heard today, I think, and by no means do I mean to speak on behalf of him, I'm sure that if he had the chance and choice, he'd do it all over again! He may have taken some bad decisions, but he always kept going on, always with a smile! People judged him, offended him and called him names, and it hurt him, but he did not back down; even if their comments were hurtful, he did not take offense, he kept on showing them his love and magic.

In the end, his love for life and for people prevailed over the scandals and gossips, otherwise, there wouldn't have been so many people gathered, in LA and worldwide, to be there for his "final concert".

Funny how you can never appreciate what you have until it's gone...

He managed to convey his love, his hopes, his dreams, his strength, his strive, his passion, his unshaken belief that the world can change, through his music, performances and actions. He made broken hearts smile, he broke boundaries, he saw the unseen, he made the impossible possible, and for that, he shall always remain a burning flame in the hearts of those who knew him, loved him, appreciated him, admired him, respected him, not for the celebrity, but for the human being that he was... This is merely the end of a beginning... Millions of unborn people will be influenced by his music, his dance, his life... They will continue his work, and carry on his message!

And for those of you who still consider him a monster and a freak! If only more monsters like him were born more often... maybe humanity would still have a chance...

Thank you, Michael Joseph Jackson! For loving, for hoping, for believing, for fighting, for striving, for never giving up, for everything you've accomplished, for always wanting more and doing everything to get it, for being a perfectionist and an idealist, for being YOU!

Dear Diary....

2009-07-03T23:40:00.001+03:00

tasukete!!!!! :*cryyy:

de ce eu? de ce acum? de ce ever?

de ce trebuie sa trec prin stresul admiterii la facultate pt a 2a oara? :evil: tocmai cand reusisem sa o fentez timp de 2 ani, acum tre' s-o iau de la capat... si de data asta sa o iau in serios, ca daca nu, ma bate sora-mea (poc!) :boxing:

deep breath and...

oh well... se pare ca nu mai e specializarea la care as fi putut sa-mi dau licenta anul viitor... ceea ce nu e neaparat un lucru grav, tinand cont ca n-aveam chef sa dau cu ochii de oamenii cu care ar fi trebuit sa dau ochii in ultimii 2 ani... asa ca a ramas limba si lit. engleza, respectiv franceza ca singura optiune... >.< ma intreb daca ma mai tine minte secretara, ca doar ce mi-am retras dosarul de la Litere... :blush2:

si Sociologia mi se pare interesanta, dar la mediile mele... :crazy: mai nou, Dreptul are admitere... economie politica?! ma rog... cica inca nu e sigur daca e cu admitere sau nu... si totusi mai e doar o saptamana pana se deschide perioada de inscrieri... >.<

oh well... (mda... zic oh well cam des... alt tic... >.<) presupun ca in eventualitatea in care eu as reusi la un moment binecuvantat din viata mea (de mult n-am mai avut parte de unul...) sa zbor din tara asta, engleza si franceza ar fi de folos... dar zau asa... literatura?! ce mi-a displacut cel mai mult in toti anii de scoala :boxing: bineinteles, dupa fizica si geografie... :crazy: si sper ca nu au de gand sa ma puna sa fac practica cu plozii de liceu (deja am flahsbackuri cu bietele studente care veneau sa ne predea la orele de engleza... :onigiri2: seriously now... ce sa caute o incepatoare care nici n-a terminat facultatea, la clase de a 10a si a 11a care culmea, sunt si bilingv? :lol!: noi eram stresati cu Cambridge si olimpiade si vin fufele astea... imi amintesc ca o data, trebuia cica sa facem o ora de literatura si sa pregatim Dickens si colegii mei cei dragi >.< ca sa nu-i frece pe toti la melodie si sa-i lase sa caste ( a se citi cashte) in pace, m-au bagat pe mine la inaintare... deh... top of the class la English, ce mama ma-sii :lol!: - si totusi n-am luat eu A la Cambridge...:boxing: mama ma-sii de speaking... - si cand i-am citit lu' aia un eseu in care facusem paralela intre Oliver Twist si Jane Eyre, n-a mai zis nici pas! deh... incepatoare... :-j) ca nu am (aproape) nicio intentie sa devin profesoara...

my gosh ce paranteza lunga...

mda...
m-am descarcat acus... ma simt mai bine :rock: si am scris cat pt o saptamna :D

de acu'... cred ca ne mai vedem cand ajung la sormea... 7 zile de relaxare... (pe naiba... parca-l vad pe fratimiu ca vine si incepe "hai sa speli covoarele" "hai si ajuta-ma sa..." :-@) poate o sa scriu ce fac in fiecare zi..
day 1
day 2
etc...

asta imi aduce aminte de filmuletele de pe youtube cu Hongki lmao!! biata Jelly... da' chiar erau draguti impreuna si imi pare rau ca n-au continuat... desi... off camera... who knows? ;))

pfai bine ca nu stie Jelly romana, ca m-ar fi uciderizat la faza asta... da' las ca scriu si pe blog >:) anything to piss Jelly off!

ja ne!

:pinkchu:

p.s.: a da! nu ti-am zis ca am blog... :D altul... mi-a facut Qiqi pofta, ca ea chiar se tine de el... :D
si cat m-am chinuit cu editarile... >.< tot nu prea-mi place poza cu Jaejoong acolo, da' alta mai buna n-am gasit... nici n-am avut rabdare sa caut prea mult... :D

in fine... pe asta sper sa-l tin updatat... pe cat posibil... cam asa ca pe tine :P

Ha!!

2009-07-03T21:29:00.003+03:00

I finally found one thing that I like more about Kat-tun, than about DBSK and that is: backup dancers... ^.^

those who know me know that I was a die-hard Kat-tun fan, until one day, when my dear old friend Katsumi sent me a youtube link to Tri-Angle... I loved the violins...
and that was that! DBSK is my ichiban now, and I'm sure they'll remain like this for a long long time, cause they're like nothing I've seen before... *slightly blushes*

but seriously now... I thought about this when I was checking up the latest photos on asianfanatics and there was this pic of Yunho "kissing" one of the backup dancers and oh my god the bashing!!!! I swear those are not fans, they are lunatecs and they should be sent to the No.9 Hospital asap!!! so I surfed youtube a bit to see the actual scene and... I don't get all this fussing... she's not that great anyways, and I wasn't impressed with the other ones either... same thing goes for their previous concerts... >.<

now remember Rescue? they were a lot better... (they as in the dancers... :D)

gosh I'm ranting too much these days.... but hey! that's the purpose of this blog, ain't it? :P

butterflies

2009-07-03T21:21:00.003+03:00

I love butterflies... I love this photo... I took it when I went to visit some relatives a few weeks ago... there's more on deviant ^.^

hate

2009-07-02T10:56:00.002+03:00

yeah... I'm a hateful person....
I hate it when my friends take advantage of me, just cause I'm nice and like helping people.. what a dumb thing to do >.<

I hate it when my brother slams the doors, all the more when I see bits of my wall falling off when he slams the bathroom door.... >.<

I hate my doctor, cause he makes me run through town for a stupid piece of paper, so that I can apply for that stupid college...

speaking of which... I hate college!!!! I actually hate myself more for being so indecisive about my future and my life.. but hey! "keep looking, don't settle" right? ^.^ bottom line is, I'll have to attend that stupid college that I've run from for the past 2 years... to think that I could have graduated in less than a year... =___= baka!! baka!!! oh well... no use crying over spilt milk, right? :D

I hate summer, especially when there's no running hot water... >.< May is the best... ^.^ (all the pwetty pwetty flowers!!!)

I hate thunderstorms, thunders really creep me out, though I wasn't such a crybaby when I was a kid...

I hate insects... except for butterflies...

Rawr!!!!!

2009-07-01T21:53:00.000+03:00

I'm the one you love
I'm the one you hate
I'm the one who pisses you off
I'm the one you can't live without... (well I'm sure you can, but do you honestly wanna try living without me?)

yay! another place for my numerous rants... ^.^ I promise I will TRY to keep this one updated...

about me... you don't need to know a damn thing about me! if you don't like it, there's like a billion gazillion website on the www that you can check out.

I'm usually a nice and outgoing girl, but if you piss me off, you'll learn that I'm not always that nice.. rawr!

p.s.: I don't get pissed off that easily, so may still have a chance :P